Deep - a Haiku (Written 18/10/10)

It cut me so deep
When you had to leave this realm
I cry crimson tears

© Toni Higgs 18/10/10

Sedated

So tired, so relaxed and heavy, can’t focus, yet somehow
Alert
Feeling numb and empty
Yet I know my emotions are there
Just not
Quite
Within
My
Comprehension
Everything’s a daze, a blur, dreamlike
Feeling warm and fuzzy as if I’m merry on drink
The day seeming to
Drag
Yet simultaneously
Fly
Not quite sure what I’ve done, what I’m doing, or where this is going
Just typing, not really seeing, just…..
Hungry, so hungry
But
Not really
Just mindlessly eating
Carrying on as if a machine
Losing thoughts
Forgetting
What was the point of this?
****
Trying to remember where
This is going
And what I’ve already written
****
Staring
Wondering
Trying to make sense of what’s going
On inside of my head right now
****
So tired, so relaxed and heavy, can’t focus, yet somehow
Alert
Feeling numb and empty
And
Everything
Is running
Ever
So
Slow
That is feels like
I might just suddenly
****
Stop

 
© Toni Higgs 12/09/10

Random Photographs taken in my bedroom

Just some random pictures (taken in the dark)

Happy 10th Anniversary Steven

10 Yellow roses for 10 years -


Rakastan sinua niin paljon ritarini xxxxxx
Love you forever, Eternally yours
Your Damsel
xxxxxxxxxx

 

Twist - a haiku (written 28/08/10)

Heart already weak
They go and stab the knife in
Heart is now broken


© Toni Higgs 28/08/10

Need - a haiku (written 26/08/10)

Losing to madness
Still craving for the answer
This is killing me


© Toni Higgs 26/08/10

To Gina

Just a little something I came up with as a thank you to Gina Zavalis - Thank you so much *hugs*

TO GINA

I picture you writing
With tears in your eyes
While you open up your heart
For us all to hear

I can’t help but feel
Your music reach for me
And when I feel all alone
I know where you will be

Your music comforts me
While I am here, lost
Longing to be with the one I love
Your songs make me feel free

So while I’m
Paralysed, confused and frozen
You are stopping me from fading away
While I’m waiting for my time to go home

You help me stop
And focus on every breath
To help me keep my solemn promise to my love
And soothe me as I give my heart a fighting chance


© Toni Higgs 25/08/10

* text in blue are titles of Gina's songs