Eternal (Written 13 Apr 2010)

I wish I could turn over and see
Your cheeky smile beaming back at me
And be comforted by the realisation that you’re still there
That the reality in which you were dead was just a nightmare
A reality that I can happily forget
As I know it wont happen for a long time yet

CHORUS 1:
I wish I’d spent more time with you
And expressed just how much I love you
Much more than I used to
I wish I’d let you come to see me
Given us the chance, to alone together be
Like two people together normally
I thought we’d spend our lives together
I thought this would end, never
But now it’s only my regrets that will live with me forever

I wish I could wake up and realise all this worry is unnecessary
Instead of being alone for yet another painful anniversary
Or that I lived in a reality where
Like Romeo and Juliet we died together
Instead of having to use all my strength and might
Just to keep my promise to you until our sprits re-unite

CHORUS 1

I wish I could talk to you
So you could my happiness, renew
Instead of spending my time wondering
If unknown to me that right next to me you are sitting
If it’s realistic of a reunion for me to hope
Or that in doing so my sanity is in fact hanging by an increasingly frayed and narrowing rope

CHORUS 2:
I wish I’d spent more time with you
And expressed just how much I love you
Much more than I used to
I wish I could honestly say that I tried my best
To see you one last time before you were laid to rest
But I wouldn’t have had the strength even if I had been feeling my best
I thought we’d spend our lives together
I thought this would end, never
But now it’s only my regrets that will live with me forever

I wish you knew the answers I’ve been longing to hear
The answers that would extinguish my fear
I wish that you could show me that everything I regret
Is not doing me any good and them I should just forget
And you don’t hate me for the things I promised you
The things that when it came to it I couldn’t do

CHORUS 2

But now it’s only my regrets that will live with me forever


© Toni Higgs 13/04/10